Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Seeking Direction

It's been too too long since I blogged. I guess I just fell into either keeping it to myself,talking to someone or just going to God in prayer. There have been days when I just come up blank and empty inside,when I'm like fill me up lord 'cuz I'm lost, 'cuz I feel clueless and helpless *sigh* but at the end of the day "It is well"

Not much has happened since the last time I came to these parts,no really not much has changed and I think that's what upsets me. I really don't know what I want to do even,it's like I'm just sleeping and waking up,no direction,no drive,pretty much uninspired. I'm very ashamed to say it,but I'm pretty much where I started off this year and the year has almost ended already *sigh* I envy people that know what they want and know how to get it,because at this point I doubt that I know anything,and so I'm desperately seeking direction.

I have no job,no business,no money (of my own), no boyfriend,no lover,no toaster,no bestfriend...but I have God,family (even tho they know how to work ones nerve) and a few friends. So for those things I'm thankful and always remember to count my blessings.

I may not have all that I want,but for right now I have all that I need.

xoxo
Ms.Bollz

2 comments:

'Rera said...

I can't give much advise cos I relate so much with this, but you've said it all you might not have what you want but you have what you need. You're a strong person bollz this is why I know you'll be fine, even the strong need comfort in due time it'll work out.

MsBollz said...

Awww thanks tori. We'll get through it all my dear.