Thursday, August 14, 2008

It's time and i know i'm ready

So the people that know me personally or that have been reading my blog know that sometime last yr God helped me get rid of my "goodfornothing ex". I say god bcos He does answer prayers oh,i prayed about dis fellow n God revealed himself to me. Anyway im lying in my bed scooping ice cream(dt tastes more like ass-cream,eewww) and im reading various relationship stuffs n doing amebo wit my girls n it dawned on me dat i'm ready,it's time. I'm in the right place to love again,im ready to commit to another man,im ready to share my most intimate parts with a special someone,im ready to be loved and cared for like i know i deserve.
After d breakup,i went thru all d phases dat come widdit; Hurt,Anger,not sending,then back to being hurt,then being hurt for a while (esp wen he had moved on). I was hurt that it was sooo easy for him to move on quickly to the next phase of his relationship wit his nu chick wen i was still hurting. Wanna know wat i did d weekend we broke up?? i partied!!! My girls n i hit d town n we partied i called it my Liberation weekend,it was fun trust me,a good way to hide d hurting but still not enough to take d pain away.
I was living my life 1 day at a time,trying not to think abt it,trying not to think abt how my life woulda been if we were still together,trying not to think abt him wen i saw a flipping laptop power pack! then i realized its not possible to actually forget abt him,but it was possible to get over the hurt n move on from it n allow myself feel again.
I met random guys during my healing phase,but there was always an issue,but it wasnt entirely me cuz there will always be issues btw d male n female genders. So i decided to focus on other things,thats wen PR came along,it allowed me to focus on other things.
I still think abt him occassionaly,maybe refer to him from time to time but he doesnt rule my mind nemore,doesnt rule my thoughts or even my choice of men.
I am free!!! Yes thats right this naija sista is free from hurt n pain n is soooo ready to move on,so oya begin to submit ur brothers,cuzins,bestfriends etc resumes for screening. It's gonna be on a first come,first serve basis ohhh,hhehehehehehehe!

Ok someone said i type too long,i'll stop now.
Till d next time Peace,Love,Harmony n Respect to u n urs

3 comments:

Eyin'ju Oluwa said...

Let the resumes come through me!

Hey babe!

Sienne said...

Lool

na to loff again na!

before!

i wish u wellu wellu on ya joh ni ooh!

archiwiz said...

That's great to know girl...Its time, you're ready...and the universe is waiting. Go get it girl!