I forgot ,I totally forgot! Relationships are a special kind of struggle. After being single for so long,I have to admit that I'm struggling with this. I know last time i said I wasn't going to blog about "the man" yet, I'm still not gonna talk about him on here,just going to talk about how I feel.
*sighs* what can I say... Relationships are a special kind of struggle. Oh wow! I didn't realise,I know relationships require work but it's different when you're actually doing the work! I feel like we are like chalk and cheese. I'm Virgo,he's Pisces- earth+water=Mud! When did i start believing in horoscope? Well I don't! I'm just trying to show how different we are.
I like to talk hours on end to my current POI (Person of interest),he can't do 7mins of just rambling and not talking about anything but random rubbish,the kind I like. I know when to create time for us and say no to friends,he doesn't! Having to plan time to spend together is difficult,cuz of the nature of our jobs. I tell my friends that I don't know when I became so needy and clingy,but I know it's not just me. I'm not going crazy! It's always something,one thing after the another. One thing I've learnt is Patience! Woah! I have learnt to be patient! If you know me well,you'll know this is huge! I even find myself doing the things he likes,even down to my nail polish *covers face*
I can't help wondering "what on earth did I get myself into?" like omg! I have learnt to put my non issues on the back burner,just so I'm there. Who'll be there for me? When I want to talk,everyone else is available but the one I want. Sometimes I'm not very positive as to where this can lead,but I promise to give it a chance. These days it feels like that's what fills 70% of my thoughts and talks sef. I don't want to talk to my friends about how I feel anymore, cuz I feel it's becoming a bit too much,things should not be this much,no?!
I'm not even sure what this post is trying to say,I think it's all summed up in the first
paragraph really,but I still had to ramble na :D
I can't proof read,if I do,I won't post this any longer.
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xoxo
Ms.Bollz

In my little cocoon

Friend A: Hey wanna go out on friday?
Friend B: Errrr,well I'm hanging out with my other friend. What do you wanna do?
Friend A: Oh! it's nothing,just wanted to go to XYZ
Friend B: Oh ok,might be going to XYZ also,i'll let you know
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Friend A sends a message to another friend
*Friend no longer has you as a contact. Re-invite or delete contact*
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Two separate (unrelated) scenarios. They're a few things I take personal...actually I lie. They are quite a number of things, but it's no big deal, nothing to worry about, just amazes me really how easy I am forget. Over the years I have learnt not to expect much or bother about things/people much. Right now I am distant from people/friends, I wasn't aware of it until now. Maybe it was on purpose or maybe not, I dunno but for now I retreat back to my shell, only to come out when necessary.

Side note- The freedom I have on here... I doubt that many people (especially those that know me personally) read. Hehehehe
Oh! and before I go, let me share a little testimony with you. I've been a little down lately as my posts show but the other day I updated my BBM status to "Find your place of praise" (another story behind that phrase) ...and just when I was slipping into mild depression about the state of my affairs, I got a call to come for an interview. It went well, now waiting on the next stage.
Moral of the story: In ALL things, find your place of praise (in Him). He will always come through for you, always!

Till next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xoxo
Ms. Bollz