Love don't live here anymore.

Hey guys! Howdy do? yea we're still on this "howdy" tip,lol. So I just left the lovely TWP's blog aka VivrantThing and the topic struck a cord,well 'cuz 1. I'm woman 2. I've been a victim 3. I know a number of victims 4. I also know a few offenders too.
Basically the post is about "String-long relationships",the ones that date for while (years in most cases),promise each other the world,claim to love each other,the lady may even get a "rock" and a fancy proposal and then just like that gbam!Get dumped. Next thing you know homeboy is engaged to be married to the "love of his life",SHIKENA!
Ok after that background let me give you a brief history into my dating/love life. In my very first proper relationship,I was the offender.I knew I didn't love him,yet I strung him along for a few months and one day out of the blue i broke it off with him. He cried,he begged but as much as I knew he loved me,I knew I couldn't reciprocate,so it was better to let things end then rather than years down the line. Relationship 2 happened about 2 and a half,almost 3 years after the first...fast forward 9-10months it was over (I believe I've blogged about this before). He didn't string me along,we both knew it wasn't going nowhere,he met up with someone else (from his past),I bounced,he married her in about 3months. Relationship number 3 hahaha this one was a dumb move from day one,after on and off for about 2years,I let him go. I've been single for over a year now.


A couple of weeks ago this guy I used to talk to said B,"I don't like this new you. You're so cold and detached...I miss the old you." See at this point I didn't realize I had changed,in fact I still don't think I've changed. I think this is  another side to me he couldn't see before until he tried to string me along for no damn reason. We are friends now,no worries but I can't forget how he tried to play me.
I remember sometime ago, I met this guy, not bad on eyes, tall, has a good job, ambitious...you know my kind of guy. We met up a few times yada,yada,yada until I asked him what he wanted from me, dude bolted! lmao! Calls ceased,bbm's reduced,I stopped seeing him. LOL I guess he couldn't take my straight forward question. He assumed (for some foolish reason) I wanted him to wife me or something. I mean dude we've hyped you,you're hot but you're not on fire,no need to pour gasoline on yourself (I hate the smell). You see my question was simply to know where to put him- "Just friends", "Potential boyfriend", "Bootycall" or "Not interested" (which is where he is now). I was simply trying to avoid a "String-along relationship". 
As they say a man can date you for 10years and know from the 10th minute when he met you that he wasn't going to marry you. Woe betide any man that will date me for years, meet my parents and loved ones, even put ring on my finger and then not wife me. 
Even my girlfriend has accused me of being emotionally detached and I agree.
I am not emotionally attached to people,I am the kind of person that stays home days on end without any physical interaction with friends. I am not the kind of girl that throws "darl,hun,sweetie,love..." (and whatever other kind of endearment people use these days) around. It doesn't come naturally to me. Don't get me wrong,I do love my friends but unless we are in a relationship and I actually love you,you WILL NOT be hearing "love you baby" from me. I don't fall easily,actually I have only ever been "in love" once.(Disaster). I lose interest in men as fast as I gained interest. I am inpatient in waiting for you to know what you want ('cuz i pretty much know where i wanna put u in 5mins of meeting) and once it's gone,it is gone *shrug*. I'm not a "long ting" type of babe. I told some guy that and he didn't get it either :o
Love don't live here anymore,it's been long gone. I do hope to meet up with love again someday soon,but until then My name is Bollz and I am emotionally unavailable.


People, avoid String-along relationships, I prefer straight up relationships,be honest and say what you want or don't want. Ladies (especially) remember IF YOU ARE NOT MARRIED,YOU ARE SINGLE. Don't get it twisted.


Till next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect.
xoxo,
Ms.Bollz


P.S Ms licious i'm changing my font colour for you (this one nko?),don't say i never did anything for you :p

Thankful for yesterday...Hopeful for tomorrow

I remember January 1,2010 like it was yesterday. Walking home from church with my cousins a little after midnight,talking on the phone to my (then) boyfriend, apologizing for the wrongs of the past year and making promises for the new year. Fast forward to 3pm Jan1,I took the decision to walk away from the turbulent relationship. I promised myself happiness in 2010 and wasn't going to remain in a relationship that wouldn't work,if on the first day of the new year only a few hours after making promises can't be perfect then what does the rest of the year hold for us?

Turned out to be one of the best decisions of my life. I'm thankful for that day,I'm thankful for where I am today,I'm thankful for I have learnt never to settle for less than I deserve.

I haven't found what I'm looking for but I know God will bring him to me,the one He has made specially for me so I don't worry about that anymore.

2010 was all sorts of things for me,so I look forward to a better 2011. A career change is in the works,i'm actually excited about this. May God crown my efforts with success. AMEN!

It is well with us all. Here's to a fabulous year with family,friends who have become family and people with meet and communicate with from day to day *cheers*

So just as i signed in to blog i got the Wikileaks link on Nigeria and i got distracted,now i'm not even sure what to blog about ; what i read or what i had plans to say initially. Let me leave wikileaks,i don't have the strength tonight but i will say this former first lady is PAID! I fear the woman o

Moving swiftly along, so today mother was talking to me about the every popular "man issue" all because I said there's no one. She goes "that's what you always say,thee's no one.When will there be someone?" I tell her Gods time na lol. Anyway she goes on and on about me looking for the perfect man,and how he (perfect man) doesn't exist so I should better give somebody a chance. I tell her I know there's no such thing as a perfect man but I know there's a man for me,I just haven't met him yet. Then I make the mistake to say-I still have time na,I'm young (oops).She looks at me and repeats what I said,like she's tryna tell me that sounded stupid,and goes you're not young o,when will you meet him?When will you court (I hate that word by the way "court"). Then she goes on to say maybe my expectations are too high or i need to change where I go,that since I've been going to these places and I've not met anyone i should go to other places. She's like "ah ah nigba ti o ge l'apa"(translates-when you're not handicap) LMAOOOOO.
I love my mother and all but God's time mama,we can't rush Him,but i will take her advice of going to other places. So this Christmas I will become a social butterfly! Not necessarily clubbing or partying,but I'll go for more events,house parties,beach parties,dinners...basically I'll hang out more,meet new people and see what happens.
Please don't get me wrong o,I'm not desperate to get married,I'm just tired of being alone. Everybody deserves that someone.

Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours.
xoxo
Ms.Bollz