My heart weeps,the tears i can't shed

Hey people's!!!
Its thursday again so ya im gonna be confessing,altho i was relatively good dis past week but HEY it promises to be one helluva weekend.
YAY!!!! Bosslady LOL Bobby Taylor is gonna be in lag n im excited.There's already so much to be done and so much fun to have while doing it i.e Dbanj's album/foundation launch. Neway i'll keep ya'll posted.

So str8 to d bizness of the day,it's CONFESSION TIME!!
I confess that im excited to have internet back
I confess that i couldnt careless abt dis certain person
I confess i've finally shuu-ed him away n i dont feel bad :D
I confess im becoming so mean these days n NO it's not anger!
I confess i've been bumping into ppl from dat bad dream(old relationship)i had
I confess i've been looking fly n being truly happy those times. Go figure
I confess i've been listening to RESENTMENT by Beyonce wit a new meaning.
I confess that i went shopping crazy dis week n i still have d urge
I confess i want a jewel by Lisa (JBL) dress so bad
I confess i want those miu miu bags i saw *sigh*
I confess im not really luking forward to going back to school
I confess i NEED MONEY!!!
I confess i got a call abt another "friend" n i was kinda hurt/upset,but not surprised. wait im i getting attached again?
I confess i couldnt cry!!! I heard n i was stunned but i didnt cry,i stil haven't
I confess dat confession is abt to get juicier by d week!!!!

Ok so on tuesday i got a text from my friend saying our other friend passed on!!! Omo i was shocked!!! i couldnt cry,i couldnt scream,i just sat there n read d message over n over. I dont understand how a young man can just sleep and not wake up,i dont understand,i just dont get it. We weren't that tight but we had our close moments,i knew u well enough to grieve n mourn ur passing,it's sad NIYI WILLIAMS that u're gone,dat u left like dat. How can d evil hands of death just take u away like dat?? U won't be around to share my successes with me,u wont be here to make me laugh wit ur silly sense of humor. Worst of all i hate that i hadn't been a good friend,i cant remember d last time i spoke to u,but i do remember d last time i saw,u came to my house to see me n u prank called Mr ex wit my phone,i almost ate u alive for it but we still laughed abt it n it was all good. I hadnt had a shower ir brushed(eww) but we still hung like we had known eachother forever. Things were just looking up for u,dey were getting better n i was silently watching ur progress from afar,i should have been more up close,i shoulda asked how things were with u.
I pray God will comfort ur family and friends,i know that u shall REST IN PEACE Niyo,we love u.

Ok so on that note i'll sign out,there was jist but i cant bring myself to write about it nemore,pls bear with me.

So take care of urselves and eachother,live life today cuz we dont know wat 2morow brings.Tell that someone how u feel today,cease every moment and kick ass!!! Muah!

~* CONFESSION THURSDAY*~

What!What!
Wat it do my people?? Welcome,welcome to confession thursday!!!
You know i forgot it was thursday till i saw d confession thread on dat forum dat we all know im on :o. So before i blog imma confess, here goes nothing

I confess that these days i've been bad at confessing
I confess that when i confess it's straight from the heart
I confess that i dont fall often,but wen i do...
I confess i love and appreciate my friends soooo much
I confess i need money mehn
I confess i need/want to shop
I confess d dude i met is irritating me
I confess he's a nice guy,maybe too nice
I confess i hav cramps ryte now
I confess i enojoyed d suprise brownie n cake i got yesterday
I confess i dont wanna hang out 2nyt
I confess i like my hausa man (ok not really,but na my persin)
I confess life is beautiful,most times.
I confess i cant wait for canada '08
I confess i just heard abt my result.OH LORD!

Ok im done,yea nothing scandalous happened dis week,but who im i kidding d week aint ova yet!
So yea mr. movie surprised at my office wit a box of pizza,brownie n ice cream. Part of my fav things,well it wasnt really a surprise cuz he hinted already. Does it make me feel different abt him? uhh NOPE! would i change towards him?? NOPE! it takes WAY more than dat n no he's not on d ryte path. Atleast he hasnt called me today. YAY!!!

Okay then ppl,im done for today. Till d next time,take care of urselves and eachother!LOL

Egbami ohhh

My reply to d comments on my previous post
U guys dont gerrit,it's too soon. As in seriously guys it's not like ive known him dat long,wo it's too much now,it's too early for all dis jagbajantis n its comin across like he's trying to hard and i dont want someone dt is almost annoying while being sweet,it should flow n i dont wanna feel like im being mean cuz we arent moving on d same pace,im WAY behind n i dont have plans on speeding up

NOW TO TODAY'S POST
Egbami ohhh,won fe je igbe mi ohhh,bcos i don hammer!!!!! I didnt know i was dat fine ohhh
Wat it do?
Sooo yea i was gonna blog yesterday but my office got shut down,lol dont ask me how or u.
So neway i went to get breakfast yesterday at d barcelos n as im walking i see dis car dat i kno oh so very well n my chest just tightens,dts d feeling i get wen i know sumthin is gonna happen,or sumthin/someone i dont wanna see,or its just a funky feeling. Neway im walking in n im telling myself gurl r u on crack?it cant be him,dont be silly,ofcourse he's not here,he's not d only one dt drives dat kinda car u kno?
Lo and behold i see him "d ex",sitting there typing away at he's laptop,suffocating the hell outta dat chicken bone. The first thing that goes thru my mind is "wats he doing here?" he never comes to d island well i guess dats wat marriage does to u *Wait i didnt tell ya'll he was married? nooooo not wen we were together,but he got married 2wks ago to d love of he's life*
Nehooo i order wat i want n wait! damn d wait was long ohhh,as in almost 30mins for a flimsy sandwich!!!! i dont know if he saw me n really i dont care if he did. the truth is we r strangers to eachother now and he is wat he is a bad dream i'd never forget in a hurry.
And NO! im not still having sleepless nights over him (actually i neva did) but he does owe me n will pay someway,some how *evil grin*

Oh before we go on,welcome another anonymous reader, HI!!! welcome i promise to confess dis week,i kno i kno i always promise but i'll do it dis week.
Ok so sumthin weird just happened,i updated my status on FB dat doesnt favour someone n like dat my FB is not browsing nemore,lmao!
Ok so im back to work mode n im seriously slacking,i love PR but it takes patience n d grace of God to deal with some ppl.
Neway so wats new??
I has to blog about dis,dis morning who knows d things that may still happen today *sighs*

Oh Lord help me, save me. Okay i kno im insatiable,but really kilode gan?
So i went to see a movie d other day i met,dis guy. Well more like d guy tried to cut me off in line,paid for my movie n now he's irritating me BIG time.
Okay here's d story, so i get to d front of d line,im rushing cuz i was already late n dis guy tries to cut infront of me n d lady at d counter smiles at me. i didnt even luk up,cos really naija men no get manners. Neway d girl at d counter luks at me n smiles n i flash her my mega watt smile n im like "a ticket for incredible hulk pls" n she's like how may im like 1 n im digging for my wallet to pay n d guy besides me goes "im seeing d same movie she's seeing" and pays .
Ok fine i luk up at d dude n im like thank u,but... he's like oh no pls im running an NGO dat buys tickets for ladies wit a nice smile im like "oh really wen did u start dis NGO" n he's "today actually" (in a very cute accent)

I shoulda known,not to start it ohh,but he seemed nice but now he's becoming damn right IRRITATING!!! yea i kno i have issues!
But i havnt known u for a week sef n u've written me a poem? ok seriously but really isnt dat a tad too much?? So i was dis cussing it with a friend of mine n here r some excerpts from out chat

*friend*... says:
Did u meet up with that guy?
* T*I*F*E* says:
yea
* T*I*F*E* says:
ok i have issues i kno
* T*I*F*E* says:
but d guy irritates me already
* T*I*F*E* says:
n he's really nice n seems to like me,but i find him irritating
* T*I*F*E* says:
i kno im mean,but woreva
*friend*... says:
lmaoo
*friend*... says:
how is he irritating?
* T*I*F*E* says:
d thing is i dont even kno
*friend*... says:
lol
*friend*... says:
so y do u keep meeting him?
* T*I*F*E* says:
lol iono,im bored i guess
* T*I*F*E* says:
n he keeps calling,he even wrote me a poem!
* T*I*F*E* says:
i kno he's a nice guy,but there's just sumthin dat isnt doing it for me
* T*I*F*E* says:
he's to mushy i guess
* T*I*F*E* says:
no it isnt him being mushy,its just....
*friend*... says:
hes too attentive
*friend*... says:
u dont want him to be an ass
*friend*... says:
but u want him to be a little unavailable
*friend*... says:
hes giving u too much too soon
*friend*... says:
almost like it's too easy
* T*I*F*E* says:
EXACTELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
* T*I*F*E* says:
yea it's too easy,nothing is dis easy
* T*I*F*E* says:
i mean i met him wen?thursday?
*friend*... says:
lol yea
*friend*... says:
i know guys like that
*friend*... says:
irritates the hell out of me
*friend*... says:
thats how one idiot called me 23 times and sent me 11 text msgs in 15mins
*friend*... says:
becuase he thought i was angry with him
*friend*... says:
we werent dating o!
*friend*... says:
after that i told him
*friend*... says:
i would never like him
*friend*... says:
we just dont click and to stop wasting his time
* T*I*F*E* says:
we r soo much alike mehn
* T*I*F*E* says:
like seriously,HE WROTE ME POEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*friend*... says:
esp since i love to write and read
*friend*... says:
but uhm
*friend*... says:
u just met me
*friend*... says:
i could be psycho
*friend*... says:
i could have herpes,i could be a demon
*friend*... says:
how do u know?
* T*I*F*E* says:
i kno ryte
* T*I*F*E* says:
as in really,it wasnt really a lovey poem,but still
* T*I*F*E* says:
EEEWWW,i mean is dat how u go about tripping for gals?
* T*I*F*E* says:
n ryte now im at a point in my life dat i have WAY more fun hanginf out wit my friends
* T*I*F*E* says:
dat wit some guy,feels like we r dating
* T*I*F*E* says:
especially a guy dats not my friend 1st
* T*I*F*E* says:
so neway,d guy is gonna be on pause ryte now
* T*I*F*E* says:
imagine oh
* T*I*F*E* says:
he was going thru d pics on my fone n he's like he wanted to send one n im like NO!
* T*I*F*E* says:
dude i dont kno u like dat,wat do wanna do go n start jerking off to my pic?
* T*I*F*E* says:
i showed him d pic of dis brownie n icecream
* T*I*F*E* says:
den he calls n asks me to send him d pic,im like y after a while he eventually tells me
* T*I*F*E* says:
cuz i said dats part of my fav things n he wanted to get it for me
* T*I*F*E* says:
As in really kilode?? i kno its d lil things dat makes me melt,but if i liked him now it would be a different case
*friend*... says:
LMAOOO
*friend*... says:
but its like
*friend*... says:
hes not giving u a chance to like him
*friend*... says:
its going too much into overload
* T*I*F*E* says:
as in i liked him d 1st day but now??he's goin a lil too strong

Okay so wat do u guys think?? no ohhh i dont hav herpes ohh,lol. but seriously do i hav issues or r dey normal issues?? Cuz ryte now im putting d guy on stand still jare,abeg i no get dat kain time abeg, shuuu!

He still loves me

So i was bored as hell and didnt know wat to blog abt so i stole dis quite annoying meme from exschoolnerd. So here goes, quite long sha n somewhat annoying,but i still finished it

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?

Aint no mountain high enough- Aretha Franklin done by Mariah,destiny’s child etc

BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

E be like say- tuface

Does it make sense??? *shrugs*

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Mo gbono- dbanj

That right my guy has to be gbono mehn, don’t want no lukewarm typa guy

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

To na sibe –dbanj

Lmao *dead* no comment n no, im not horny: o

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?

No long thing –Mo hits allstars

Ehn?? Yes there’s no long thing in my life,but ewo ni purpose??

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Roll- j-status,riri

Hmmm yea everything must roll on,but...

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Say goodbye- Chris brown

Ewo! Iknew it! I knew my friends wanted to say goodbye to my ass

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

Oh no!- mo hits allstars

Lmao! Yes dey make me kolo ohh,wel sumtimes sha, i still love dem sha,not like i have a choice!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

You’re not the same – t pain

Well yea ppl change n so do I,so u need to get it while its hot! It’s not gonna wait for u!

IT could be anything

WHAT IS 2+2?

One love- tuface

Dats ryte,if u bring ur 2cents n i bring my own,we’ll get one love ohh my ppl

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

The way I are- timbaland n kerri

LOL i don’t have best friend,but i guess my good friends like me d way I are. When im broke, when im PMS-ing, when im being a bitch, it’s still d way I are mehn

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Ice box (remix)- Omarion, usher, fabolous

LMAO!!! Yes ohh my heart is in an icebox where d ex left it ohh, lol. So there u go d person (ppl) i like sorry my heart is an icebox, maybe u can melt it :o

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Evil deeds- Eminem

I cant say ive listen to dis song sef,i cant remember d words but Lord knows ive done some evil deeds in my life sha, but it shall not be d story or my life in Jesus name, Amen!

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Free- lighthouse family

Yes ohhh, i wanna be free from pain, evil, disappointment, rejection etc ,i wanna be free from d bad things in dis world, lol, wen i die abi??

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Gongo Aso- 9ice

Yes oh!!! Gongo aso wen u notice me, gongo aso wen we get together, gongo will keep so-ing for us all thru our lives. Aiye a gbo, Orun a mo! U knoooooooooooooo

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Tattoo girl- Faze

Well i always wanted to get a tattoo, so i hope wen i gerrit dey’ll tell me dey gbadun my tattoo (in my dreams!!)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Dem Mama- Timaya

Uhhh i don’t think so!!! Maybe at d party sha

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Olori oko- Infinity

Hmm i guess iono, i wont be there

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Bayelsa – timaya

Uhhh makes no sense at all

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Wayo ppl- Timaya

All u wayo ppl, if i tell u it wouldn’t be a secret nemore now would it?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Forever and always – Shania Twain

That just says it all; forever n always we’ll always be there for each other

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?

He still loves me (Fighting temptations OST) – Beyonce and Walter Williams

Yes ohhhhh d Lord Jesus still loves me, regardless of all my imperfections n sins, He still dey by my side ohhh. Thank u Jesus i love you.

I have more things to blog abt and i have confessions to make, so tune in tomorrow for my jists!!

PEAVE, LOVE, HARMONY and RESPECT to u and ur's