He sent me a BBM tonight,read my reply and didn't reply *sigh* I shouldn't expect anything, that I know but a part of me silently does.
So today i bummed! I promised to get up and do something,but I totally bummed.Spent the whole day with my nephew,infact woke up to find him in my bed (lovely way to wake up). He is soo precious,love him to pieces.
Tomorrow will be a better day,that I know.
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Monday, December 13, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
To blog or not to blog...
Lying in bed on a saturday night (well sunday morning) while some are partying,some r sleeping and others are sleeping. I'm here minding my own business in the dark,listening to the neighbour 3 houses away on another street whose generator sounds like ero lo'ta (local grinding machine) permit my yoruba it sounds better that way.
Anyhoo I'm here head pounding,eyes burning but still can't sleep. So what do I blog about?hmmm
It's almost christmas,which means alotta things but to Lagos people it means 2 things; the 'I just got back' aka "innit,wanna,gonna" crew will be landing everyday from everywhere spewing phonee,even the ones from Kazachstan where 'dem no speaky no english". Oh and 2 loads of events,parties and generally something happening somewhere. But for me this is the time of year I'd rather not go out. Everywhere will be crowded,people will be shoving,stepping on your shoes,spilling their drinks on you,filling the air with smoke *sigh* chaos! Since I promised to be a social butterfly,I'll try my best to. attend some events and a few parties,maybe I'll meet a correct bobo,hook me some "gonna,wanna,innit bruv" hehehe.
So tonight was the MAMA's (MTV Africa music awards) couldn't be bothered to go,the last one I went for I saw wheeeen! So this one,I saved my 25k to buy shoe instead and trust my twitter family not to disappoint. As usual after every award everyone will bitch and analyse why one artist should have won instead of another artist. Jeez! Human beings can never be satisfied,but instead of get up and do something about it they hide behind their handles and bitch and moan *yawn*
Next time,if you know e pain u reash like that,VOTE!
Moving on! Recently I feel rather disconnected from my friends,especially the girlies. I should do something about that,maybe invite them over,cook,booze,gist and just have a good ol' girl time. Talking about cooking,I'm considering cooking christmas lunch or dinner for the whole family. Now where's O.Y?let's put a menu together :D
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and your's
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Anyhoo I'm here head pounding,eyes burning but still can't sleep. So what do I blog about?hmmm
It's almost christmas,which means alotta things but to Lagos people it means 2 things; the 'I just got back' aka "innit,wanna,gonna" crew will be landing everyday from everywhere spewing phonee,even the ones from Kazachstan where 'dem no speaky no english". Oh and 2 loads of events,parties and generally something happening somewhere. But for me this is the time of year I'd rather not go out. Everywhere will be crowded,people will be shoving,stepping on your shoes,spilling their drinks on you,filling the air with smoke *sigh* chaos! Since I promised to be a social butterfly,I'll try my best to. attend some events and a few parties,maybe I'll meet a correct bobo,hook me some "gonna,wanna,innit bruv" hehehe.
So tonight was the MAMA's (MTV Africa music awards) couldn't be bothered to go,the last one I went for I saw wheeeen! So this one,I saved my 25k to buy shoe instead and trust my twitter family not to disappoint. As usual after every award everyone will bitch and analyse why one artist should have won instead of another artist. Jeez! Human beings can never be satisfied,but instead of get up and do something about it they hide behind their handles and bitch and moan *yawn*
Next time,if you know e pain u reash like that,VOTE!
Moving on! Recently I feel rather disconnected from my friends,especially the girlies. I should do something about that,maybe invite them over,cook,booze,gist and just have a good ol' girl time. Talking about cooking,I'm considering cooking christmas lunch or dinner for the whole family. Now where's O.Y?let's put a menu together :D
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and your's
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
So just as i signed in to blog i got the Wikileaks link on Nigeria and i got distracted,now i'm not even sure what to blog about ; what i read or what i had plans to say initially. Let me leave wikileaks,i don't have the strength tonight but i will say this former first lady is PAID! I fear the woman o
Moving swiftly along, so today mother was talking to me about the every popular "man issue" all because I said there's no one. She goes "that's what you always say,thee's no one.When will there be someone?" I tell her Gods time na lol. Anyway she goes on and on about me looking for the perfect man,and how he (perfect man) doesn't exist so I should better give somebody a chance. I tell her I know there's no such thing as a perfect man but I know there's a man for me,I just haven't met him yet. Then I make the mistake to say-I still have time na,I'm young (oops).She looks at me and repeats what I said,like she's tryna tell me that sounded stupid,and goes you're not young o,when will you meet him?When will you court (I hate that word by the way "court"). Then she goes on to say maybe my expectations are too high or i need to change where I go,that since I've been going to these places and I've not met anyone i should go to other places. She's like "ah ah nigba ti o ge l'apa"(translates-when you're not handicap) LMAOOOOO.
I love my mother and all but God's time mama,we can't rush Him,but i will take her advice of going to other places. So this Christmas I will become a social butterfly! Not necessarily clubbing or partying,but I'll go for more events,house parties,beach parties,dinners...basically I'll hang out more,meet new people and see what happens.
Please don't get me wrong o,I'm not desperate to get married,I'm just tired of being alone. Everybody deserves that someone.
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours.
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Moving swiftly along, so today mother was talking to me about the every popular "man issue" all because I said there's no one. She goes "that's what you always say,thee's no one.When will there be someone?" I tell her Gods time na lol. Anyway she goes on and on about me looking for the perfect man,and how he (perfect man) doesn't exist so I should better give somebody a chance. I tell her I know there's no such thing as a perfect man but I know there's a man for me,I just haven't met him yet. Then I make the mistake to say-I still have time na,I'm young (oops).She looks at me and repeats what I said,like she's tryna tell me that sounded stupid,and goes you're not young o,when will you meet him?When will you court (I hate that word by the way "court"). Then she goes on to say maybe my expectations are too high or i need to change where I go,that since I've been going to these places and I've not met anyone i should go to other places. She's like "ah ah nigba ti o ge l'apa"(translates-when you're not handicap) LMAOOOOO.
I love my mother and all but God's time mama,we can't rush Him,but i will take her advice of going to other places. So this Christmas I will become a social butterfly! Not necessarily clubbing or partying,but I'll go for more events,house parties,beach parties,dinners...basically I'll hang out more,meet new people and see what happens.
Please don't get me wrong o,I'm not desperate to get married,I'm just tired of being alone. Everybody deserves that someone.
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours.
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Seeking Direction
It's been too too long since I blogged. I guess I just fell into either keeping it to myself,talking to someone or just going to God in prayer. There have been days when I just come up blank and empty inside,when I'm like fill me up lord 'cuz I'm lost, 'cuz I feel clueless and helpless *sigh* but at the end of the day "It is well"
Not much has happened since the last time I came to these parts,no really not much has changed and I think that's what upsets me. I really don't know what I want to do even,it's like I'm just sleeping and waking up,no direction,no drive,pretty much uninspired. I'm very ashamed to say it,but I'm pretty much where I started off this year and the year has almost ended already *sigh* I envy people that know what they want and know how to get it,because at this point I doubt that I know anything,and so I'm desperately seeking direction.
I have no job,no business,no money (of my own), no boyfriend,no lover,no toaster,no bestfriend...but I have God,family (even tho they know how to work ones nerve) and a few friends. So for those things I'm thankful and always remember to count my blessings.
I may not have all that I want,but for right now I have all that I need.
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Not much has happened since the last time I came to these parts,no really not much has changed and I think that's what upsets me. I really don't know what I want to do even,it's like I'm just sleeping and waking up,no direction,no drive,pretty much uninspired. I'm very ashamed to say it,but I'm pretty much where I started off this year and the year has almost ended already *sigh* I envy people that know what they want and know how to get it,because at this point I doubt that I know anything,and so I'm desperately seeking direction.
I have no job,no business,no money (of my own), no boyfriend,no lover,no toaster,no bestfriend...but I have God,family (even tho they know how to work ones nerve) and a few friends. So for those things I'm thankful and always remember to count my blessings.
I may not have all that I want,but for right now I have all that I need.
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Friday, October 15, 2010
God don't like ugly
Ugh! If there's anything I hate,I mean totally irks the shit out of me is Selfishness! Eeewwww. Yea I agree that the most important person to you is you,but c'mon!!!! When was the last time you thought about the next person before you did something for yourself? Did you consider how your decision affects the other? Yoruba's will say "ti téyan kan o ba baje,téyan kan o ni da" (if it doesn't go wrong for someone,it wouldn't go right for another). Yea I get that but if you supposedly care for that person shouldn't u consider how your decision affects them? No? yes? maybe? Ok let's even pretend you don't care for the person,must it go wrong for the person for you to be happy? Núhn!
God don't like ugly...Selfishness is ugly.
Moving along swiftly! On thursday I finally became liberated from the government. NYSC is OVER!!! Ajuwaya *itches! lol. If you're Nigerian,a University graduate and have gone through the one year compulsory service you would understand the excitement! It just felt like the crowning glory of all the many years of education,like this is what I've been working for,almost felt better than my actual graduation even *sigh* that chapter is over,but hey "more money,more problems" yo. First order of business,get a JOB!
Since I stopped work I have done absolutely nothing with myself,it's quite sad actually but I know I'll find my footing eventually,sooner rather than later.
Still desperately seeking wisdom...
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and your's
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
God don't like ugly...Selfishness is ugly.
Moving along swiftly! On thursday I finally became liberated from the government. NYSC is OVER!!! Ajuwaya *itches! lol. If you're Nigerian,a University graduate and have gone through the one year compulsory service you would understand the excitement! It just felt like the crowning glory of all the many years of education,like this is what I've been working for,almost felt better than my actual graduation even *sigh* that chapter is over,but hey "more money,more problems" yo. First order of business,get a JOB!
Since I stopped work I have done absolutely nothing with myself,it's quite sad actually but I know I'll find my footing eventually,sooner rather than later.
Still desperately seeking wisdom...
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and your's
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Monday, October 11, 2010
Desperately seeking wisdom
Psalm 49:3
My mouth shall speak of wisdom; and the meditation of my heart shall be of understanding.
Psalm 90:12
So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom. (My personal Favorite)
Psalm 111:10
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: his praise endureth for ever.
In these recent weeks all I have asked God for is wisdom,for with wisdom brings understanding and then knowledge. Even almost every verse in the bible where wisdom is mentioned understanding follows in the same sentence, with knowledge and understanding there is life...
With a joyful heart today I type, God has been good, I've gone down on my knees and prayed and asked for wisdom, for not only me but for all those around me,most especially my friends and the way He reveals Himself every time has been nothing short of miraculous.
I don't mean to preach,or maybe I do,lol but I've been phased with certain decisions which could alter my near future. I'm glad I took the decision to hold back, hold my tongue and pray instead,for wisdom and the situations sorted themselves out just fine.
Every day I seek wisdom,desperately. What do you react to? What do you turn a blind eye to? How much do you react?should you decide to. When to speak? When to listen instead? So many questions...
Ecclesiastes 7:12
For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence: but the excellency of knowledge is, that wisdom giveth life to them that have it.
2 Chronicles 1:11-12
And God said to Solomon, Because this was in thine heart, and thou hast not asked riches, wealth, or honour, nor the life of thine enemies, neither yet hast asked long life; but hast asked wisdom and knowledge for thyself, that thou mayest judge my people, over whom I have made thee king: Wisdom and knowledge is granted unto thee; and I will give thee riches, and wealth, and honour, such as none of the kings have had that have been before thee, neither shall there any after thee have the like.
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
My mouth shall speak of wisdom; and the meditation of my heart shall be of understanding.
Psalm 90:12
So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom. (My personal Favorite)
Psalm 111:10
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: his praise endureth for ever.
In these recent weeks all I have asked God for is wisdom,for with wisdom brings understanding and then knowledge. Even almost every verse in the bible where wisdom is mentioned understanding follows in the same sentence, with knowledge and understanding there is life...
With a joyful heart today I type, God has been good, I've gone down on my knees and prayed and asked for wisdom, for not only me but for all those around me,most especially my friends and the way He reveals Himself every time has been nothing short of miraculous.
I don't mean to preach,or maybe I do,lol but I've been phased with certain decisions which could alter my near future. I'm glad I took the decision to hold back, hold my tongue and pray instead,for wisdom and the situations sorted themselves out just fine.
Every day I seek wisdom,desperately. What do you react to? What do you turn a blind eye to? How much do you react?should you decide to. When to speak? When to listen instead? So many questions...
Ecclesiastes 7:12
For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence: but the excellency of knowledge is, that wisdom giveth life to them that have it.
2 Chronicles 1:11-12
And God said to Solomon, Because this was in thine heart, and thou hast not asked riches, wealth, or honour, nor the life of thine enemies, neither yet hast asked long life; but hast asked wisdom and knowledge for thyself, that thou mayest judge my people, over whom I have made thee king: Wisdom and knowledge is granted unto thee; and I will give thee riches, and wealth, and honour, such as none of the kings have had that have been before thee, neither shall there any after thee have the like.
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Friday, October 8, 2010
I pray, I hope...
Excerpts from my unprovoked rant on bbm with my girl Tori
Gosh! I feel so ill
I need a man. The one who'll get me drugs,pepper soup,feed me,clean my vomit,hold me when I'm cold, fan me when I'm hot and there's no light. He'll dab my head with a cold cloth when I'm running a fever and even my whole body with a cloth when I can't make it to the bathroom.
He knows how to take care of me,because he loves me.
I know the perfect man (he once did all this for me) but I can't bring myself to love him the way I know he deserves.
I'm scared, I swear to you.
O_o *blankstare*
Not sure where all that came from,but that's the truth. I feel like I'm coming down with something (again) and in my weak state I took a trip down memory lane. I have the best family and friends one can ask for, but there's that something...
I pray, I hope i find it...
Peace, Love, Harmony n Respect to you and your's
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Gosh! I feel so ill
I need a man. The one who'll get me drugs,pepper soup,feed me,clean my vomit,hold me when I'm cold, fan me when I'm hot and there's no light. He'll dab my head with a cold cloth when I'm running a fever and even my whole body with a cloth when I can't make it to the bathroom.
He knows how to take care of me,because he loves me.
I know the perfect man (he once did all this for me) but I can't bring myself to love him the way I know he deserves.
I'm scared, I swear to you.
O_o *blankstare*
Not sure where all that came from,but that's the truth. I feel like I'm coming down with something (again) and in my weak state I took a trip down memory lane. I have the best family and friends one can ask for, but there's that something...
I pray, I hope i find it...
Peace, Love, Harmony n Respect to you and your's
xoxo
Ms.Bollz
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Eyes Wide Shut
I cried today, I don't know where the tears came from but I just laid in bed and I felt the sting in my eyes and wetness on my face...the tears came rolling down.
From all the excitement of last week, to the melancholic feeling of this week...
I don't have the words to say right now that describes exactly how I feel, but I'm worried about myself that I'm towing the same line again and again. You would think because I know, I would be careful not to but it's like I'm eyes wide shut...
I pray, I hope...
Till the next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect
xoxo
From all the excitement of last week, to the melancholic feeling of this week...
I don't have the words to say right now that describes exactly how I feel, but I'm worried about myself that I'm towing the same line again and again. You would think because I know, I would be careful not to but it's like I'm eyes wide shut...
I pray, I hope...
Till the next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect
xoxo
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I got a hug
I came on blogger unprepared to type up an entry really, so this post may end up being extremely random but the bottom line is: I am Happy! I am thankful, words of praise can't stop filling my heart. As I type I'm singing a praise song. God has been good!
It's 2 days to my birthday and I can't help but be excited, yes I know it's just another day in the year, but on that day some twenty something years ago a child was born~ME!!!!
I have every reason to thank God. I may not have it all, but His grace has been sufficient for me. His grace has kept me. I may not be perfect and even sometimes undeserving, but God has remained ever merciful and faithful, so yes I have every reason to be happy. Just at the beginning of this week, I was feeling slightly under the weather and I said God, this is my week, this is my month, I shall have no illness, I shall receive total healing and He answered me. Over the years I have learnt to count my blessings, one by one by one...and each time I am convinced that I am a miracle and a testimony.
Hahahaha it's starting to sound like I'm preaching, but it's just gratitude. I can say that I do not have all that I WANT, but at the moment I have all that I NEED and for that I'm content.
Today a friend (randomly) sent me a hug on bbm and told be not to ask why, although I'm curious as to why, I received and return the hug. It's the little things in life that counts, the hugs, the "I love you", the "I just wanted to see how you're doing", just a smile, a wink, just the look that tells the other person that which words cannot express. It's always in the little things.
May God teach us to always number our days, so that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.
Till the next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and your's
xoxo
P.S Happy Birthday ME!!!! (Sept 18)
It's 2 days to my birthday and I can't help but be excited, yes I know it's just another day in the year, but on that day some twenty something years ago a child was born~ME!!!!
I have every reason to thank God. I may not have it all, but His grace has been sufficient for me. His grace has kept me. I may not be perfect and even sometimes undeserving, but God has remained ever merciful and faithful, so yes I have every reason to be happy. Just at the beginning of this week, I was feeling slightly under the weather and I said God, this is my week, this is my month, I shall have no illness, I shall receive total healing and He answered me. Over the years I have learnt to count my blessings, one by one by one...and each time I am convinced that I am a miracle and a testimony.
Hahahaha it's starting to sound like I'm preaching, but it's just gratitude. I can say that I do not have all that I WANT, but at the moment I have all that I NEED and for that I'm content.
Today a friend (randomly) sent me a hug on bbm and told be not to ask why, although I'm curious as to why, I received and return the hug. It's the little things in life that counts, the hugs, the "I love you", the "I just wanted to see how you're doing", just a smile, a wink, just the look that tells the other person that which words cannot express. It's always in the little things.
May God teach us to always number our days, so that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.
Till the next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and your's
xoxo
P.S Happy Birthday ME!!!! (Sept 18)
Monday, August 30, 2010
Good bye August... Hello September
So my birthday is coming in September *yay* and as promised I'm putting up my wish list, it includes things I wish i could afford to gift myself, things I would get myself or wish someone (a friend or family) would be kind enough to gift me. Here goes...
You can see how gorgeous this bag is,whaaaaattttt I've been dreaming of this baby and one day (soon), it'll be mine!
Next is this adorable Michael Kors wrist watch, you see the colour right? Now you know why i have to have it *bats lashes*
Ok, Ok any purple strap watch will do just fine,in fact any watch for that matter :D
I've always wanted a maxi dress, I can so see myself rocking this on a very casual saturday for brunch with the "manz" after a long night of partying and errrr... or to the beach even *sigh*
Ofcourse I need a new blackberr' (pronounce as spelt, lol), aka the good addiction
I'd love to read this, it falls under the category "I can afford" plus I love to read and it's by a Nigerian Author...
Ofcourse you weren't expecting me to have a wish list with no shoes in it?!
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| Louis Vuitton Monogram Idylle (Fusain) |
Next is this adorable Michael Kors wrist watch, you see the colour right? Now you know why i have to have it *bats lashes*
I've always wanted a maxi dress, I can so see myself rocking this on a very casual saturday for brunch with the "manz" after a long night of partying and errrr... or to the beach even *sigh*
Ofcourse I need a new blackberr' (pronounce as spelt, lol), aka the good addiction
I'd love to read this, it falls under the category "I can afford" plus I love to read and it's by a Nigerian Author...
Ofcourse you weren't expecting me to have a wish list with no shoes in it?!
These shoes aren't exactly what I want, just similar styles,if you get what I mean...who am I kidding? I adore these shoes!!!
Really, honestly and truly what I want for my birthday (asides from that thing I told God *cough* a good man *cough*). I want to grow stronger spiritually and mentally, get smaller physically (lepa or die trying remember?), be with family and friends that day, celebrating and toasting to a new year and to many more years of happiness, joy from within, peace of mind, growth and stability.
Here's hoping your September be better than your August.
Till the next time. Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours.
xoxo
Here's hoping your September be better than your August.
Till the next time. Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours.
xoxo
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Little Prima Donna
August can like to end, so the beautiful month of September can begin...
Yea you can guess right? It’s my birth month and you know what that means? PARTAAY! Lol ok I kid (not). It means I’m growing older and hopefully wiser and stronger. Bla bla bla.
So I enjoy planning and organising parties and events (I see a money making venture coming out of this passion), don’t let me digress... anyway so my friends are looking forward to my birthday, me sef I’ve made mouth about how it’s going to be a weekend thing, I’ve gotten people excited, including myself. But I’ve been thinking *silence bollz is thinking* since my account is not exactly in the green at the moment, and there are many other things I need this (non-existent) money for let me maintain my level abi?
Where did this come from you may ask? I’ve been excited about my birthday party prospects since last year and now I’m changing my mind? Well minds are made to be changed, and I just may be changing mine.
I think I agree with Zara that I may be a lil high maintenance, yea maybe just a little bit na. We were discussing the cake for my birthday and I said I wanted a cake with a Louboutin shoe on it, complete with the red sole showing... What?! Can’t a girl know what she wants again? *side-eye*
The wants of the man are unlimited (we were taught that in Eco101) and so are the wants of this young woman, but we all know resources are limited. This DIY life isn’t easy, if I want something I have to do it myself, I want a party? I throw myself one, I want gifts? I buy them myself... I want to be happy? I have to make myself happy. So what do I do? Throw a party, make my friends happy as well as myself and in turn shell out major money or buy myself that bag I’ve been eyeing, those shoes that have been calling my name and that watch that I need and make me a VERY happy birthday girl? Or maybe even use the money to re-package my dear “Purple Props” or take a weekend trip to Ghana or Gambia, but what’s the fun in that if you are by yourself?
That said I think I’ve already found the perfect dress for a beach party- To buy or not to buy? That is the question. I already know the hairstyle sef, I can already see myself... I know what cake I want, where I want to do it, the people I’ll invite... Yes! I think I agree I’m a little prima donna, how I became like this I don’t know, it takes years of practice I guess. LOL! Oh and let me add my now reducing waistline in conjunction with my shrinking backside (not quite bikini ready tho)
So yea whatever I decide you will know, cuz while I was typing I got an update, so who knows *big grin* next post will be my 2010 wish list *grins again*
Till next time, Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours.
xoxo
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
His Grace leads....
I swear I don’t know how I do these sorts of things to myself. Why do I allow myself fall like that? Only if you knew how much I feel for you, maybe you’ll act differently, maybe you do know but don’t care and if that is the case it’s time to stop feeling... #EOS
Hiya blogville, it’s been waaaaaaaayyyyyy too long! Where have I been? twitter that’s where I’ve been dropping all of my randomness.
Cooking has been such a release for me in the past couple of months. I’ve been experimenting with all sorts of non-naija dishes n they have been turning pretty nice actually. Now I understand the passion chefs have towards food and watching the simple ingredients come to life. I have learnt that one can do anything and everything with food all you need is a little imagination, a lot of enthusiasm and be willing to learn. (But let me warn you prepping can be a bitch)
Music, that’s another thing for me, I’ve been exploring and discovering more and more. There’s soooo much music out there, especially those I wouldn’t think I’d like. Right now I’m listening to country music, Faith Hill to be exact. I love her voice, the strength in it, the passion you hear in it... (I’m a sucker for people with good voices).
My friends- they remain pretty much the same. Loyal, Consistent, Loving, always there, in different ways but they are always there. We are all different, we may all be doing different things with our lives, some will move away, others will get married and have kids, some will pursue careers but no matter where the journey of life takes us to... We are bound in our hearts, by our love, the value we put on our friendship and of course our trusty blackberry :D. This year is going to be big for us all, in different ways but I know we’ll always remain friends.
My family-Well since the last time I’ve been here, we’ve had a new addition (insert YAY!’s). His name is Aanuoluwatomisona (means the grace of the lord leads me), lol Tomisona for short and I named him Morayotemi (means I’ve seen my joy). He was born on the 22nd of June, 2010 at about 6:45pm, I know this because I was there, not there as in delivery room but you get my point. He is the joy within, my boyfriend as I call him. He is going to be spoilt rotten, he has doting grandparents, aunties and uncles not to talk of his parents. Our precious little bundle of joy, so innocent, yet so smart, he’s growing everyday and so are his senses. I already see all the “best dancer” prizes from parties he’s going to win (it’s in the blood).
Coincidentally he was born on my father’s birthday and granddad named him Oluwajomiloju (the lord has surprised me or God amazes me) mehn I tried with this translation.
He is going to grow knowing the worth of a good and strong family. He is going to grow knowing that he is free to dream and should work hard to achieve his dreams. He is going to grow to be greater than his dad and granddad. He is going to grow with strong Christian values and a good name, because the grace of God leads his way. He is going to grow into a handsome young man, that any good woman will want to wife, and of course aunty will teach you how to be a good man, how to treat a woman right, how to love a woman that deserves your love. You will be great and I know it already.
May the grace of our lord Jesus Christ lead all our ways, today and forever more. Amen!
Till the next time; Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and your’s. xoxo
(May I just add that this post took me over a week to complete, call it writers block or whatever I don’t know. Just to add that my pre-entry has been sorted out *big grin*)
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
About nothing...but may be something
See now these are the kind of posts that just go on and on and on, as I don’t have anything in particular to blog about, I just feel like blogging, or maybe I do have something I wanna blog about that’s why I’m here, I just don’t know what it is yet...or maybe I do *sigh* ISSUES!!!
Ok then let’s be random!
~Sometimes I wonder when I’ll meet “The MR”. Have I met him already and I didn’t know? Nah! I would know. I would feel it in my soul when I eventually meet him, I would know in that moment that he’s the one. The MR, imperfections and all...My MR. I promise to be true to you, to care for you, to support you, to open my heart to you, because I know you deserve it; in my heart is where all my good things lie. I would reveal all my faults to you, because I know you can stand them. Because I know you would love me, imperfections and all.
~Last time I blogged about friends and I’ll just say this... “Once my enemy (non literal) becomes your best friend, I know to be wary of you. Where does your loyalty lie?
In case you notice that I pull away from you, don’t ask me silly questions, I don’t trust you!
~I need to go grocery shopping and stop starving myself. I’m not surrounded by healthy food, so I have to go and get it before I explode.
~I miss you terribly
~Someday I’ll wake up and you’ll be forgotten
~These days a very good friend of mine has been irritating me, it’s nothing new, nothing that hasn’t been going on before but these days it’s been irritating me. I wonder why though, it’s pretty weird but I just find myself zoning out.
~If you can’t do something about your situation, stop complaining about it and get to getting. Life is not going to slow down for u to catch up.
~One day baby...I’ll be bulletproof :D ok excerpts of a song. Told you this is a random post.
~I can’t wait for the day that’ll I have enough sleep at night not to feel sleepy at the office. BORING!
~I wanna wear pleather leggings, but I’m not sure how my bum will look in it? Was it made for women with my kinda round-the-corner-2mins-later bum? Ok it’s not that bad but...
~Sex and city is going start showing tomorrow, I must go watch it. Woohooo! Excitement.
~I believe there is a God and He will help me
~I am still broke, even worse than last week. See I need help someone that will share some of my wahala with me.
~It’s going to be a fun weekend. I kent shout, but come thru if you wanna hang
With all these said I hope I’ve been able to convince you that this was a rather random blog post, inspired from nothing but became something.
Till the next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xx
Friday, May 21, 2010
Just because,therefore no title
Hey ya’ll how is everything going? Life? Love? Work? Finances? Lol yes I’ll remember that ‘cos im broke L
Anyways so today I knew i wanted to blog about something, I just wasn’t sure what. Then I had [I’m having (cos it’s still going on)] a conversation with a “friend” and I share some of my future dreams with him, yes it’s a him, and his reply is “GOOD FOR YOU”. Are you for real? I know you can like appear non-chalant about stuff, well may be because you just don’t care much about me and my issues. So anyway so in the beginning this friend and I were pretty chummy, we used to chat every day, every morning I would wake up to a bbm from him and then all of a sudden life happened, it’s a miracle if we chat in one week, if I cashed a cheque for every time my messages didn’t get a reply...let’s just say I won’t be crying broke.
So that said, today I’m blogging about friendship if you didn’t guess that already. First I’ll tell you the kind of friend I am. I love my friends they are like family to me. I don’t mess with my friends. I make sure I’m there when they need to talk or they just need someone to listen or they just need someone to be there. I believe in my them, I support their dreams and I’m always there to lend a hand and share their excitement, celebrate milestones and achievements, help them up when they fall, encourage when they struggle, be a wind underneath their wings so they may fly. I’ll pray with you and pray for you, God is the ultimate friend. But I’m far from a perfect friend. I am impatient and can be very moody; I have a knack of snapping in and out of moods. I can also be bad at not keeping in touch sometimes (esp if you don’t have a bb J) but I am a good friend that will tell you like it is, keeping in mind your feelings, I’m not a selfish friend.
Now I have all sorts of friends from the highly mature to very childish, from the stubborn to the slightly passive, the loud and the quiet ones. Some are highly ambitious, others are content with allowing a man take care of them. Some are home bodies, others are party goers. Some have connections with the high and mighty, others don’t even care to know “who they know”.
I’m talking about my real friends, those ones that have my back regardless, the ones that have been there for me with every smiley face, every tear over lord knows what, every first date to the heartbreak and disappointment, every drunken night and hungover morning, every scary moment and damn right exciting times. These are the people that just know when to call, what to say, what to do and how to show love that wouldn’t judge me, but be real with me and tell me the hardest truth.
Don’t forget to tell your friends how much you love them and always try to keep in touch. Be a true friend to someone and your life would be soooo much better for it, learn to pick your friends wisely so you don’t regret opening your heart.
Till next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and your’s
xx
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Confession, confession, confession...
Father forgive me, for I have sinned...
I confess that I am getting discouraged on this diet thing. I’m not seeing any difference *sigh*
I confess that I don’t really want to be lepa, just drop a couple of dress sizes, that’s lepa enough for me.
I confess that rice and bread wouldn’t be the death of me. It’s so hard to stay away from them.
I confess that whenever I hear my BBM tone, my heart skips and I hope it’s you.
I confess that I get disappointed because it’s never you. OFCOURSE!
I confess that I’m almost positive it’s not who you’re thinking.Amebo, I’m not telling.
I confess that he’s my little secret, I’m not telling either.
I confess that Love don’t leave here no more, it don change address.
I confess that still talk to myself out loud, yes it’s therapeutic but only in private sha :D
I confess that I need a new booty call......#ontothenext
I confess that I am hornery, tehehehe. It’s not easy oh.
I confess, I am BROKE!as in broke.This life is hard!
I confess that sometimes I just tune out and keep to myself. I don’t even want to hear you breathe.
I confess that as I type I am soooooo hungry! All I see is curry chicken!
I confess that even though I shouldn’t, I am highly curious to test how good (or bad) you’d be in bed.
I confess that I love the beach soooooooo much!
I confess that my future hubby n I must own a boat and a beach house and retreat every weekend! (with or without the kids)
I confess I’m a shoe freak, but I’m still broke!
I confess I’m hungry...ok I said that before L
On that note Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours, till next time!
Monday, May 17, 2010
Cuddle Monday
WOW!
I typed a whole post about the cold,relationships,heatbreak,God...and blah! It's all gone.
Anyways I'll blog strictly now about cuddle Monday.So it's not news that I'm single, so like most single ladies around Lagos we are feeling this singlehood this cold,wet monday. These are the kind of days i'll whine and say "it's not fair".
1st of January,2010 I swore I'd had enough after 2years n some of breaking up,making up and all other kinds of drama in between. I said to you that if could not love me right on the first day of the year with fresh wishes and promises,how would you love me on all the other days for the rest of the year?! I'd be damned,if i had to go through all that this year.
I just read some blog and she said something about how she never talks to God about her relationships because she feels He has better things on His mind.I used to be like that until i realized i couldn't do it on my own anymore and i needed Him to come and take the pain away. Now i cast all my fears and worries unto Him and allow Him handle it,'cuz I've tried to do it on my own and I've failed. 2 heartbreaking relationships,back to back in 3years. Tough times don't last,but tough people do.
Moving on,maybe i should have put some vodka or litchao in my thermal,that woulda kept me warm at work.Girls are not smiling mehn.
So yesterday was my first day at d gym,thanks to Bims.It wasn't so bad,i survived d beginners level n I actually like Wale,pretty up straight trainer.I'll be going back on friday...excitement *silent scream*
Maybe one day I'll rock a bikini :D ok maybe not sha,but my September I must be selsy...then I shall beach bum for my birthday with a male figure :D
I had a much more interesting post earlier before blogger ate it.I kent shout
Anyways will the next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xx
I typed a whole post about the cold,relationships,heatbreak,God...and blah! It's all gone.
Anyways I'll blog strictly now about cuddle Monday.So it's not news that I'm single, so like most single ladies around Lagos we are feeling this singlehood this cold,wet monday. These are the kind of days i'll whine and say "it's not fair".
1st of January,2010 I swore I'd had enough after 2years n some of breaking up,making up and all other kinds of drama in between. I said to you that if could not love me right on the first day of the year with fresh wishes and promises,how would you love me on all the other days for the rest of the year?! I'd be damned,if i had to go through all that this year.
I just read some blog and she said something about how she never talks to God about her relationships because she feels He has better things on His mind.I used to be like that until i realized i couldn't do it on my own anymore and i needed Him to come and take the pain away. Now i cast all my fears and worries unto Him and allow Him handle it,'cuz I've tried to do it on my own and I've failed. 2 heartbreaking relationships,back to back in 3years. Tough times don't last,but tough people do.
Moving on,maybe i should have put some vodka or litchao in my thermal,that woulda kept me warm at work.Girls are not smiling mehn.
So yesterday was my first day at d gym,thanks to Bims.It wasn't so bad,i survived d beginners level n I actually like Wale,pretty up straight trainer.I'll be going back on friday...excitement *silent scream*
Maybe one day I'll rock a bikini :D ok maybe not sha,but my September I must be selsy...then I shall beach bum for my birthday with a male figure :D
I had a much more interesting post earlier before blogger ate it.I kent shout
Anyways will the next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours
xx
Thursday, April 29, 2010
I confess...
Hello all! *hugs and kisses all round* It's confession thursday! So here goes...
I confess that
everyday i wake i count my blessings and thank the Lord.
i'm seriously struggling with this diet
DaGrin's death hit me!So sad,soo sad
I see my ex almost every weekend and i'm grateful that it's over and i'm not apart of that life anymore
People come and go,some friendships just drift apart
I love my friends,I have all sorts of them,old n young,sane n crazy,wild n tamed. Love 'em
I miss the alcoholics
As much as marriage scares me, I can't wait to find my life partner
I love weddings,it's d year for weddings and I hope and pray that *you* are next
We are not sleeping together, we are just friends jo n yes he's married but it's not what you think
Writing always makes me feel better.
Till next time, Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and your's
I confess that
everyday i wake i count my blessings and thank the Lord.
i'm seriously struggling with this diet
DaGrin's death hit me!So sad,soo sad
I see my ex almost every weekend and i'm grateful that it's over and i'm not apart of that life anymore
People come and go,some friendships just drift apart
I love my friends,I have all sorts of them,old n young,sane n crazy,wild n tamed. Love 'em
I miss the alcoholics
As much as marriage scares me, I can't wait to find my life partner
I love weddings,it's d year for weddings and I hope and pray that *you* are next
We are not sleeping together, we are just friends jo n yes he's married but it's not what you think
Writing always makes me feel better.
Till next time, Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and your's
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Slow Comfortable Fuzzy Screw Up Against the Wall
Ingredients
- 1 part Vodka
- 1 part Peach schnapps
- 1 part Southern Comfort
- 1 part Sloe gin
- dash of Galliano
- top up Orange juice
- 3 Ice cubes
Instructions
Build all ingredients in a highball glass and fill with orange juice.
Hey ya'll! It's been a couple,how goes it?!
I decided to start what I called "THIRSTY TUESDAY" ! lol,yup! On tuesdays i'll be sharing cocktail recipes and instructions.Today's cocktail is,you guessed it "Slow comfortable fuzzy screw up against the wall" tehehehehe,i like the name. Maybe it has another interpretation to be,but no be name am sha.
Moving swiftly along! I am now bb-less,during a supposed-to-be lovely pedicure and manicure session last week,my phone decided to take a swim and is still currently on life support, and since im a broke corper i have to save money to buy a new one,or i may be lucky to get papa/mama to get me a new one *sigh* I'm so empty without my bb,i keep hearing it ring in my head,i miss my friends,the alcoholics...u!
Anyways,i'm sure i came to blog something but now I've forgotten.
So till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and your's
Friday, April 23, 2010
Nothing ever promises tomorrow...today
Yesterday we (Nigeria) lost a young, gifted, talented rapper. April 22, 2010, will forever be remembered in our hearts. As i got ready to go for my brothers 30th year birthday dinner, i got the bbm that DaGrin passed on. Shock! I have met him a couple of times n he's such a humble person and mega talented, he would have gone a long way in the industry. I remember Michael Jackson also died on a thursday, another star is gone on a thursday *sad*
Nothing ever promises tomorrow...today. It's a line from a song, i don't remember who sang it or what it's called but that stuck out to me and it has been in my head all night. God giveth and He taketh and He chose to take you now, only Him knows why. I prayed for you when you lay in your sick bed and now i pray for your soul. May the good lord receive your soul!
Oladapo Olanipekun (1987-2010) Rest in the bosom of the Almighty
Remember to all tell those that you love how you feel,to always live your life like that moment could be your last, make peace and to thyself be true.
Till next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours
Nothing ever promises tomorrow...today. It's a line from a song, i don't remember who sang it or what it's called but that stuck out to me and it has been in my head all night. God giveth and He taketh and He chose to take you now, only Him knows why. I prayed for you when you lay in your sick bed and now i pray for your soul. May the good lord receive your soul!
Oladapo Olanipekun (1987-2010) Rest in the bosom of the Almighty
Remember to all tell those that you love how you feel,to always live your life like that moment could be your last, make peace and to thyself be true.
Till next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours
Thursday, April 22, 2010
LEPA OR DIE TRYING
Yes oh, that is it, I must be lepa by force,ahn ahn kilode?
All my life I’ve always been d chubbier kid, always d biggest in my class n amongst my friends, I started puberty early n those chesticles grew n grew n grew, even d behind sef grew almost equally. I never had issues with self image/confidence, I am very comfortable in my skin n with my endowments :D. It's just now fast forward years later, I’m older n wiser n I’m trying to live healthy, get n fit into sexier clothes n not spend thousands of naira on bra! ahhhh me sef wan buy 10pounds bra, okay that will never happen but a girl is allowed to dream...
So uhh this is actually the next day as I started this blog post yesterday but I never finished. So here’s today the morning after I updated my BB status to “LEPA OR DIE TRYING”. Hahahaha my bbm didn’t stop beeping uncontrollably, wow! I’m actually shocked at the number of people who think I’m just fine the way I am. Some even had a mini-fight with me, ahn ahn #isiturbody?
Someone said “I like you the way you are” and then I said “I my clothes don’t” then he says “your clothes are haters” buhahahahahaha. I’m not trying to be lepa like a model oh, just trying drop a couple of dress sizes n I’ll smile. Let my old clothes fit again, so I can wear stuff I like! As a certain someone said if I drop dress sizes, certains won’t disappear, they will still retain the look. They will only lose size, but they won’t lose appeal. *iblush*
This diet thing isn’t easy oh, and this is where my impatience will shine. As in I didn’t gain all this weight in one week or a month, so why I’m trying to see results overnight? I shall get there soon, I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing, eating healthy, no fried food, no soda (minerals for my naija ppl), exercise, live in peace n be stress-free!
Till the next time Peace, Love, Harmony n Respect
All my life I’ve always been d chubbier kid, always d biggest in my class n amongst my friends, I started puberty early n those chesticles grew n grew n grew, even d behind sef grew almost equally. I never had issues with self image/confidence, I am very comfortable in my skin n with my endowments :D. It's just now fast forward years later, I’m older n wiser n I’m trying to live healthy, get n fit into sexier clothes n not spend thousands of naira on bra! ahhhh me sef wan buy 10pounds bra, okay that will never happen but a girl is allowed to dream...
So uhh this is actually the next day as I started this blog post yesterday but I never finished. So here’s today the morning after I updated my BB status to “LEPA OR DIE TRYING”. Hahahaha my bbm didn’t stop beeping uncontrollably, wow! I’m actually shocked at the number of people who think I’m just fine the way I am. Some even had a mini-fight with me, ahn ahn #isiturbody?
Someone said “I like you the way you are” and then I said “I my clothes don’t” then he says “your clothes are haters” buhahahahahaha. I’m not trying to be lepa like a model oh, just trying drop a couple of dress sizes n I’ll smile. Let my old clothes fit again, so I can wear stuff I like! As a certain someone said if I drop dress sizes, certains won’t disappear, they will still retain the look. They will only lose size, but they won’t lose appeal. *iblush*
This diet thing isn’t easy oh, and this is where my impatience will shine. As in I didn’t gain all this weight in one week or a month, so why I’m trying to see results overnight? I shall get there soon, I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing, eating healthy, no fried food, no soda (minerals for my naija ppl), exercise, live in peace n be stress-free!
Till the next time Peace, Love, Harmony n Respect
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Untop all ya grey hair
“Ehen! Yes, I came to fought you” *blank stare*
Tiaun! Gbagaun! Pishaun! Gboa! Everybody bend down for the arrow...aaaarrrroooow! and so on etc.
Damn it! She almost took of my head with that gunshot. God help me in this office sha. Ok why is this boy scratching his balls next to me? Ewww
Moving on swiftly! Tamilore is sounding funny, I think it’s the hard drive or something, I just keep getting the feeling one day she’ll die on me (yea tamilore is my laptop :D) I better fix her asap!
So uhhh what was I going to blog about today? *blank stare* I don’t remember *blinks, still come up blank*. Oh well! I’m doing very well today, it was a good day all in all (note as I type its Wednesday night). I don’t expect much from people, so I’m less disappointed when fuck ups happen. Na so life be.
Ok so today I travelled to d rock city to get a new passport (yay, I may be leaving on a jet plane, I wish!) so anyway there we are queuing up to get our old passport cancelled and just before my mum’s turn some old lady comes out of nowhere and cuts in, in the confusion she almost gets her new passport cancelled (dat woulda been funny) and mother goes “that’s what happens when you don’t wait your turn” and then the baba stamping the passports replies “well you know it’s only right to give priority to elders” uhhhh yea sure whatever, when elder doesn’t have courtesy for herself. I’m all for respecting your elders and everything but as I always say “grey hair doesn’t equal wisdom”. So what if she’s old, did she not see people on the queue? Isn’t someone on that queue older than someone else? She could have easily played the age card and asked to cut the line, instead of playing smart, kmt. Anyway, so we are done and are walking to the car when we hear this woman talking to someone else (presumably younger) and shouting about how the person disrespected her by giving her something with his left hand...yet another culture trait I don’t understand, does it REALLY matter what hand I use to give you something? Is the left hand a bad hand? What if I wipe my ass and do bad things with my right hand? Would it make a difference? Would they now prefer I use my left? I very much doubt that though.
Anyway I’m just rambling ‘cause I seriously wonder about some aspects of our culture. Also how everyone as old as your parents or older become “mummy””daddy””big mummy” etc or how once you’re married you become “mummy or daddy*insert child’s name*. What happens to your individuality once you become someone’s parent? Is it lost? I once had a friend who told me when she gets married that I can’t call her husband by name anymore, I have to call him “daddy lagbaja”. Erm but what if they don’t have children- I don’t wish them such, but what about parents who don’t have children just yet or are having difficulty having kids, does that make them “less respected” in our culture? Because I’m wondering what they’ll call such people. Oh and don’t get me started with the women who call their husbands “daddy” not only is it highly unsexy, I also find it freaky... no way José! My daddy and I didn’t do those things we were doing last night (*dead*).
Anyway lesson learnt “grey hair doesn’t equal wisdom”. Respect everyone, young and old alike; your reward is in heaven, lol ok I don’t know I just added that bit, tehehehe
Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect! *muah*
Tiaun! Gbagaun! Pishaun! Gboa! Everybody bend down for the arrow...aaaarrrroooow! and so on etc.
Damn it! She almost took of my head with that gunshot. God help me in this office sha. Ok why is this boy scratching his balls next to me? Ewww
Moving on swiftly! Tamilore is sounding funny, I think it’s the hard drive or something, I just keep getting the feeling one day she’ll die on me (yea tamilore is my laptop :D) I better fix her asap!
So uhhh what was I going to blog about today? *blank stare* I don’t remember *blinks, still come up blank*. Oh well! I’m doing very well today, it was a good day all in all (note as I type its Wednesday night). I don’t expect much from people, so I’m less disappointed when fuck ups happen. Na so life be.
Ok so today I travelled to d rock city to get a new passport (yay, I may be leaving on a jet plane, I wish!) so anyway there we are queuing up to get our old passport cancelled and just before my mum’s turn some old lady comes out of nowhere and cuts in, in the confusion she almost gets her new passport cancelled (dat woulda been funny) and mother goes “that’s what happens when you don’t wait your turn” and then the baba stamping the passports replies “well you know it’s only right to give priority to elders” uhhhh yea sure whatever, when elder doesn’t have courtesy for herself. I’m all for respecting your elders and everything but as I always say “grey hair doesn’t equal wisdom”. So what if she’s old, did she not see people on the queue? Isn’t someone on that queue older than someone else? She could have easily played the age card and asked to cut the line, instead of playing smart, kmt. Anyway, so we are done and are walking to the car when we hear this woman talking to someone else (presumably younger) and shouting about how the person disrespected her by giving her something with his left hand...yet another culture trait I don’t understand, does it REALLY matter what hand I use to give you something? Is the left hand a bad hand? What if I wipe my ass and do bad things with my right hand? Would it make a difference? Would they now prefer I use my left? I very much doubt that though.
Anyway I’m just rambling ‘cause I seriously wonder about some aspects of our culture. Also how everyone as old as your parents or older become “mummy””daddy””big mummy” etc or how once you’re married you become “mummy or daddy*insert child’s name*. What happens to your individuality once you become someone’s parent? Is it lost? I once had a friend who told me when she gets married that I can’t call her husband by name anymore, I have to call him “daddy lagbaja”. Erm but what if they don’t have children- I don’t wish them such, but what about parents who don’t have children just yet or are having difficulty having kids, does that make them “less respected” in our culture? Because I’m wondering what they’ll call such people. Oh and don’t get me started with the women who call their husbands “daddy” not only is it highly unsexy, I also find it freaky... no way José! My daddy and I didn’t do those things we were doing last night (*dead*).
Anyway lesson learnt “grey hair doesn’t equal wisdom”. Respect everyone, young and old alike; your reward is in heaven, lol ok I don’t know I just added that bit, tehehehe
Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect! *muah*
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Welcome back,welcome back...Welcome back!
HELLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOO BLOGVILLE! omg omg,I'm bizack son!
Wow I haven’t done this in ages! I don’t remember why I stopped writing, I’m not sure what exactly happened, but I stopped and now years later I’m back again, with so many questions, so many things on my mind, so many things in my head. I’m not even sure what to make out of all these things. I’m not even sure exactly how I feel, all I know is, I feel...
I feel like water is welling up in my body, trying to come out. Yes I’m a cry baby; I cry when I’m happy, I cry when I’m sad, I cry when I’m frustrated, I cry when I see u cry, heck I cry when they cry in movies. Yea, I guess you can say I’m the emotional kind.
This is my blog, and I’m going to write straight from the heart what I feel, whenever I feel and try to put those feelings into words. Welcome Blogville to my feelings: insert smile:
Today, it has been a mish-mash of feelings, I’ve been happy, moody, straight up angry and now I’m upset. Yea, go ahead, ask me; is it that time of the month? Lol.
Anyway! I’ve been thinking a lot these past few days, about my future, what I’m going to do, who I’m going to be and to be honest I’m scared! Mama didn’t raise no fool, but I’m scared of the decisions that I take today and how they’ll affect my future. 5years ago did I make the wrong decision? Did I choose the wrong career path? Did I start the wrong business? Did I make the wrong friends? Did I rely on the wrong people for support?
The answer is maybe, maybe I did take the wrong steps and do the wrong things, but it’s not too late to change the path which I’m on now and focus, really focus on God and me. Because, at the end of the day it’s just me. Don’t get it twisted I have a great family and good friends, but sometimes you do it for you, not for anyone else.
What I’ve learned today is that people are what they are, they are just people and people come and go. One day you’re hot and the next you’re not! I write today because you upset me, I write because you are not who I thought you were. I don’t know what I thought, I’m not sure, but it sure isn’t this.
The decisions we take today affect who we are tomorrow and remember
that to thyself be TRUE.
Peace, love, harmony and respect to you and yours!
this post was typed up last night btw
Wow I haven’t done this in ages! I don’t remember why I stopped writing, I’m not sure what exactly happened, but I stopped and now years later I’m back again, with so many questions, so many things on my mind, so many things in my head. I’m not even sure what to make out of all these things. I’m not even sure exactly how I feel, all I know is, I feel...
I feel like water is welling up in my body, trying to come out. Yes I’m a cry baby; I cry when I’m happy, I cry when I’m sad, I cry when I’m frustrated, I cry when I see u cry, heck I cry when they cry in movies. Yea, I guess you can say I’m the emotional kind.
This is my blog, and I’m going to write straight from the heart what I feel, whenever I feel and try to put those feelings into words. Welcome Blogville to my feelings: insert smile:
Today, it has been a mish-mash of feelings, I’ve been happy, moody, straight up angry and now I’m upset. Yea, go ahead, ask me; is it that time of the month? Lol.
Anyway! I’ve been thinking a lot these past few days, about my future, what I’m going to do, who I’m going to be and to be honest I’m scared! Mama didn’t raise no fool, but I’m scared of the decisions that I take today and how they’ll affect my future. 5years ago did I make the wrong decision? Did I choose the wrong career path? Did I start the wrong business? Did I make the wrong friends? Did I rely on the wrong people for support?
The answer is maybe, maybe I did take the wrong steps and do the wrong things, but it’s not too late to change the path which I’m on now and focus, really focus on God and me. Because, at the end of the day it’s just me. Don’t get it twisted I have a great family and good friends, but sometimes you do it for you, not for anyone else.
What I’ve learned today is that people are what they are, they are just people and people come and go. One day you’re hot and the next you’re not! I write today because you upset me, I write because you are not who I thought you were. I don’t know what I thought, I’m not sure, but it sure isn’t this.
The decisions we take today affect who we are tomorrow and remember
that to thyself be TRUE.
Peace, love, harmony and respect to you and yours!
this post was typed up last night btw
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