Friday, October 15, 2010

God don't like ugly

Ugh! If there's anything I hate,I mean totally irks the shit out of me is Selfishness! Eeewwww. Yea I agree that the most important person to you is you,but c'mon!!!! When was the last time you thought about the next person before you did something for yourself? Did you consider how your decision affects the other? Yoruba's will say "ti téyan kan o ba baje,téyan kan o ni da" (if it doesn't go wrong for someone,it wouldn't go right for another). Yea I get that but if you supposedly care for that person shouldn't u consider how your decision affects them? No? yes? maybe? Ok let's even pretend you don't care for the person,must it go wrong for the person for you to be happy? Núhn!
God don't like ugly...Selfishness is ugly.

Moving along swiftly! On thursday I finally became liberated from the government. NYSC is OVER!!! Ajuwaya *itches! lol. If you're Nigerian,a University graduate and have gone through the one year compulsory service you would understand the excitement! It just felt like the crowning glory of all the many years of education,like this is what I've been working for,almost felt better than my actual graduation even *sigh* that chapter is over,but hey "more money,more problems" yo. First order of business,get a JOB!

Since I stopped work I have done absolutely nothing with myself,it's quite sad actually but I know I'll find my footing eventually,sooner rather than later.

Still desperately seeking wisdom...
Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and your's

xoxo
Ms.Bollz

Monday, October 11, 2010

Desperately seeking wisdom

Psalm 49:3
My mouth shall speak of wisdom; and the meditation of my heart shall be of understanding. 


Psalm 90:12
So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom. (My personal Favorite)


Psalm 111:10
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: his praise endureth for ever. 


In these recent weeks all I have asked God for is wisdom,for with wisdom brings understanding and then knowledge. Even almost every verse in the bible where wisdom is mentioned understanding follows in the same sentence, with knowledge and understanding there is life...
With a joyful heart today I type, God has been good, I've gone down on my knees and prayed and asked for wisdom, for not only me but for all those around me,most especially my friends and the way He reveals Himself every time has been nothing short of miraculous.


I don't mean to preach,or maybe I do,lol but I've been phased with certain decisions which could alter my near future. I'm glad I took the decision to hold back, hold my tongue and pray instead,for wisdom and the situations sorted themselves out just fine.
Every day I seek wisdom,desperately. What do you react to? What do you turn a blind eye to? How much do you react?should you decide to. When to speak? When to listen instead? So many questions...


Ecclesiastes 7:12
For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence: but the excellency of knowledge is, that wisdom giveth life to them that have it. 



2 Chronicles 1:11-12 
And God said to Solomon, Because this was in thine heart, and thou hast not asked riches, wealth, or honour, nor the life of thine enemies, neither yet hast asked long life; but hast asked wisdom and knowledge for thyself, that thou mayest judge my people, over whom I have made thee king: Wisdom and knowledge is granted unto thee; and I will give thee riches, and wealth, and honour, such as none of the kings have had that have been before thee, neither shall there any after thee have the like. 


Till next time Peace,Love,Harmony and Respect to you and yours


xoxo
Ms.Bollz





Friday, October 8, 2010

I pray, I hope...

Excerpts from my unprovoked rant on bbm with my girl Tori

Gosh! I feel so ill
I need a man. The one who'll get me drugs,pepper soup,feed me,clean my vomit,hold me when I'm cold, fan me when I'm hot and there's no light. He'll dab my head with a cold cloth when I'm running a fever and even my whole body with a cloth when I can't make it to the bathroom.
He knows how to take care of me,because he loves me.
I know the perfect man (he once did all this for me) but I can't bring myself to love him the way I know he deserves.
I'm scared, I swear to you.

O_o *blankstare*

Not sure where all that came from,but that's the truth. I feel like I'm coming down with something (again) and in my weak state I took a trip down memory lane. I have the best family and friends one can ask for, but there's that something...

I pray, I hope i find it...

Peace, Love, Harmony n Respect to you and your's
xoxo
Ms.Bollz