Innit brov?

Choi! My people see "P-setting oh", that's how this pikin I met on friday night wanted to use me set summer P. Thunda knack you anywhere you are o. See at some point in my life I would have gone along with him, had fun and see where it goes, but you see at his stage in my life I'm not in for casual flings (ahem,well it actually depends on the circumstance). Anyway, I met this boy at a club (yes,I'm open to meet people at clubs), he is probably max 24 (which is too young for me anyway). He came up to me, asked to dance, I politely declined- I don't dance with men I'm not having something with, no big deal but I enjoy my dance so for me to face a guy to dance we must me simulating something- I digress *grins*. Bottom line- I enjoy dancing by myself! So this boy comes up and in the process we strike a conversation, he asks if i'm out of school (first red flag), what I studied bla bla from the conversation I gather his a lawyer from London... Actually first red flag was his crew of "corn-rowed" brothers all dancing together in the corner, second he wore bling with "POW" on it. I mean that says it all hunh? but since I've changed (from being a bitch) and I was feeling happy, I indulged him and enjoyed the attention I must admit. As the night was winding down, he asks for my pin and I gave him (btw I NEVER give out my pin to people I just meet) but i thought "hey what the heck,you can always delete and ignore him". We chat that morning after I got home,he sends me a bbm on saturday about how he wasn't given up on getting to know me, I reply with "Lol". Then come sunday he sends a bbm asking what I was doing and if i had plans to which I replied "Yup", and that was it really, he disappeared from my chat and contact list. I was confused, thinking I deleted him by mistake I sent him a PIN message and he replies "lol yea I decided to take the hint".
I blame him not, I blame me for ignoring all the red flags and going against my rule and giving him my pin. Stupid little boy looking to "set summer P" on his aunty (no I'm not old o). LOL just wanted to share my story of how I was shenked by an "innit brov"

Moving on, last week was my ex's birthday. I didn't even remember till 2 days after when it was my friends birthday. The day didn't make a difference to me,it was just another day in August,  but once upon a time it would have been special to me, I would have been preparing, saving and counting down till the day. It's been 7 years since we broke up, about a year since we last saw or spoke, but when I thought of him last week... I couldn't help but wonder if he was the on that got away, my girl always "jokes" that maybe he's my real husband, the other day she said the same thing and told me to look for him. I replied "I hope he's happy and I wish him well", I really do, he's a great guy and he deserves happiness. The reason we broke up hasn't changed, I don't think I can make him happy (classic case of "it's not you,it's me"),  but seriously it just wasn't there for me. I felt bad about it,but better then than now or worse after marriage. Occasionally, I let my friends words sink in and I think "what if", what if he is/was the one? Then I remind myself that "the one" is who God has made for me, I will meet him (or have met him), we will find each other, fall hopelessly in love, fit together and be together. I'm a hopeless romantic ! lol

Till next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours.
xoxo
Ms. Bollz

P.S Thanks to Tori and Muse origins for always reading and encouraging with kind words *hugs*

Lord give me a sign

I knew ever considered that I'd be out of a job for this long, it's almost a year and things are not necessarily looking great.After one year in Uni number 1, a year in pre-degree and a 4year degree program, I never thought I would be without a job after school. Yea,I knew the economy wasn't great and job hunting was a b*itch, but I just didn't think it was going to happen to me. My friends have been lucky, in fact since we've graduated L is at her second job and loving it, even today T told me she has a gig for 2weeks (short,but better than I can say for myself). During a discussion with a friend on Saturday he asked me how I'm doing about the whole no job thing. To be honest? It sucks! I mean right now I have all the time to do whatever it is I please at whatever time, but when the end of the month comes and there is no credit alert from the bank, it sucks! Or when i want to purchase something and I don't have the funds, it sucks! Most of all, when I meet people (men) and they ask, what do you do? I say nothing, they don't believe me. It sucks because at this stage in my life I should have gained some sort of financial independence... *sigh*
Have I told you how much it sucks? Well it does!
I don't even know what i want to do in terms of business (aka side hustle), I've tried one or two things but in terms of long run plans I have nothing! I'm still trying to think hard. I know I'm not a 9-5,sit behind a desk all day type of person... At an interview last week the interviewer told me to think seriously about business or work, as I seemed more inclined towards business. I agree!
Lord Show me a sign, I'm at that point where...

Till next time Peace, Love, Harmony and Respect to you and yours